An Apology Letter to Myself
Dear Sheryl, I would like to dedicate this letter to you, for the times I've chosen to ignore and deny how you really feel inside, for the times I thought you'd be fine to handle yourself by sweeping everything to a corner. You've kept it all inside trying to act strong at most part, that I did not realised those act from triggers were manic episodes, slow steps that could have lead to the misery deep hole of depression. I'm sorry for not placing you and your happiness on priority lane among everything that I do, think, or decide on with. I'm sorry for putting you in a difficult spot for yourself, that I made you stuck at the past with endless re-runs of memories that has ended - it had consumed most of you silently that made it worst. I'm sorry for always giving you second thoughts with what-ifs, and focusing on what you solely wants to hear (lying to myself) even though that is not how it should be. Just because you wanted to hear "yes" as the an...