Lovely Complex

Good night and good morning to you humans - it's 12:42am here. Job Status : Unemployed Current Status : Broke but trying to make a living  It's been 3 weeks since I've moved to the city of kl. Initially I wanted to move in once I secured a job, but a change of plan I decided to move in earlier though I couldn't land a job as soon as I thought. It was also for interview convenience purposes, as going back and forth from melaka to kl just for interviews is a waste of petrol & time and also it's only matter of time that I eventually move to kl. The market is quite slow in hiring at the moment since it's almost end of the year. Basically it's not the season of hiring :/ Still, no man should give up - nobody really knows how this luck thing works. I went for interview and more interviews, literally I'm at this waiting phase to get respond from companies. I do hope to get a call back from this particular company that I really wanted to work wit...

They said, enjoy the free time as much after graduation. Before that work stage burden comes,  because you'll be working for the next whole life. So I went for a trip down to Australia with my fam.  And I did,  not intensifying the whole next move for the chess to continue. Seen lots of beautiful sunsets, blue-ish sky with really clear white cotton clouds.  Somehow the sky in overseas is always different than the ones at home. Went road tripping, chasing waterfalls. It was a lovely dip in Florence falls, NT despite how cold the water was and two waterfalls at once...  just amazing  ❤ As I took shower and John Mayer's Stop This Train being played from my phone... realizing this two weeks trip is ending soon. At this very moment, I have no idea how to move the next chess game.  There are so many thoughts and considerations that never cross my mind before just pops out nowhere, not sure what's holding me back ...

We never learn, we been here before Why are we always stuck and running from The bullets? The bullets? Just stop your crying, it's a sign of the times We gotta get away from here Just stop crying, have the time of your life Breaking through the atmosphere And things are pretty good from here Remember everything will be alright We can meet again somewhere Somewhere far away from here -- Sign of the Times, Harry Styles

Don't expect so much, so you won't be disappointed as much. But still, there's always some hope deep inside of us and what they're called?  T i n y  hopes.   I've put everything down to this tiny hopes, but yet you never fail, to prove how bad those tiny hopes can crush inside emotionally. So tiny, but it still crushes inside. So tiny, yet you have the power over them. In any games, the upper hand always wins. I hope we all know when to leave, and have the courage to walk away from things that doesn’t meant any good for us. Here's to more positive vibes ☼ Sheryl D x 

They said meet more new people! In fact, we meet so many people in our daily life, daily activities. Except, there wasn't any chance to get to know each one of them. I mean it would be really weird to just walk up to some stranger and initiate a talk. You could, but then the magic don't happen that way... you're not gonna be friends with some strangers that you just randomly met isn't it. Even imagining it now in my head just feels weird and off. Maybe that's the reason why every time we said to ourselves 'I need to meet more new people' and it didn't actually happen. We all know, friendship don't start off like that often. It usually through one friend's friend, another friend's friend etc that we kinda know who people are. Whenever I tell my friend that I need to meet more people, she would say "doesn't sound like a new news, you already said that for countless times... " ._. I guess saying that statement 'I need t...

Shall not be greedy more than this. I hope in the end, we'll be at where we're supposed to be and be with who we're supposed to meet to be able to share the ludicrous pieces of ours talking magics and be the best version of ourselves. Sheryl D x